OK so I just need to write this out where really no one except me reads..

I am in love with a guy from the internet who I've known for four years. He's the nicest guy I've ever met. He looked out for me and comforted me when I was down. You may say he sounds like a guy from a novel but really he's not. He plays with girls hearts all the time and he may have just played mine like a harp... but he was mostly honest with me and always was real with me loving the fact that he could always put a smile on my face no matter how depressed I was. I told him constantly that he could put the biggest smiles on my face, I would imagine as he read he would smile and say it was a pleasure. He told me I was the best friend he ever had always there for him never complained about how he acted or told him to change. I think one day he realized something that caught me totally off guard... i think he may have been in love with me... if I had been more perceptive of what I was reading I probably wouldnt be writing this but instead talking to him... when he tried to come on to me one night I got scared and ran... away from him...